Tuesday, December 27, 2005

I Hate Them

Damn. I feel sad for some reason. This happens to me alot. Random sadness from nowhere. I don't really want to be cheered up but, it sucks. I really want to get this band moving. I feel so sad and I don't know why. I feel sadder with every passing minute. The last time I felt like this I wanted to talk to my (I guess) "friend" Malissa about it, but I couldn't get her phone number. Now, I just want to be around someone. I don't know or care who. I tried listening to happy music but it made it worse. I don't want to put on metal because... well I don't know. I have to find something or someone that might explain this issue. Eh by the time any of you read this the feeling will have probably passed. I just feel lost. I need a map and maybe a cigarette. I hate memories. Dwelling in the past distracts from the present but they are inevetable. They shoot from the back of my brain like fucking automatic pistols. I hate them. I hate them so much. Any memory from my best pals in Washington, to standing in the fucking street waiting for my ex, to breaking amps in my garage last week. I just want to stop being sad. Angry, happy, stoned; I will take anything over sad right now.

8 Comments:

Blogger Shadow Lor said...

take the blankness and run with it

12:14 PM  
Blogger PEPSI LOVER said...

ahhh i wish u well...i hope u find someone u can relate 2 in person...big hugs...*dont run from me showin affection shade :) * der u go...feel betta???

9:19 PM  
Blogger Shadow Lor said...

'\::..you are missed..::/'

9:56 PM  
Blogger Shadow Lor said...

i agree with Anarchy!! get the hell back online and update this shit!!!!!

12:35 PM  
Blogger Russell CJ Duffy said...

kid. stick up two fingers. one if you feel better and shout out of an open window the word fuck as loud as you can scream.

8:21 AM  
Blogger Shadow Lor said...

*dark menacing glare*

^yes, i know that won't work on you, but it makes me happy, alright?!!?!?

2:24 PM  
Blogger PEPSI LOVER said...

tingle tingle where the hell is shade??? damn please dont tell me ...he done snapped on some people... alright everyone... Shadowlor ...Anarchy...and Cocaine (?) lets stand in front of our computer and give him the CARE BEAR STARE....to make this work we must sream (w/ feeling Shadow..wit feeling) WE CARE ! WE CARE ! WE CARE!!! and if we care hard enough ( i will enlist the help of my boys cause the more the merrier) SHADE should hear us and be hit with a wave of love and happiness... so on the count of three... Anarchy ... come bac here ... shadow... with feelin... ONE ....TWO.....THREE.... WE CARE!! WE CARE !! WE CARE !! WE CARE!!... yep yall didnt scream it huh ???
*looks around and picks up a pail of water and puts out Shadow's flames then runs to Anarachy and gives her the pail....* hehe

5:18 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

i know how you feel. except when i feel sad i want to be left alone.

12:43 PM  

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