Losing My Patience

This was an interesting week for this nigga. Alright, on sunday or monday or some time around there, I don't care to remember, my friend in in the seventh layer of hell asked me out. Of course the first thing to come to mind would be my ex-girlfriend. I though for a while. I was so sad when we broke up, three weeks had passed and I wasn't over her. But I remember her telling me what a worthless piece of shit she thought I was, and I figured she was over me so... what the hell? Why not. The nhe unexpected happens one day later. So Erick called me on three way with Jaycee on the line. It is just small talk for a while but then Jaycee starts saying shit like, "I can't belive you already have a girldfriend bla bla bla..." So I was like "Its been three weeks and you basically told me that you want me to die slow." And the we stopped for a while and either her or Erick asked "Do you l*** her?" and I said "No." and she said "Why would you go out with someone if you don't l*** them?" I was losing my patients now. "It was a fucking last minute decision." And then she said something that enrgged me. "Just trying to forget the past huh?" It was silent for a while then I said something along the lines of "Shut the fuck up Jaycee, the only thing you are pissy about is that I am not going out with you." "noooo" "Don't fucking lie! You are mad because I am going out with someone else, bla bla bla..." In the end I was mad at Erick, Erick was sad because I was mad at him, he thought Jaycee was mad at him, Jaycee was mad at me and sad because I was mad at her. None of us have spoken to eachother since. Now I know why Jaycee and I don't talk on the phone anymore. I'm not into posting long posts but there will be more tomorrow. Been a while since I've had something to post about.

Hate Their Friends

Welcome to the final day of my suspension. I don't have much to say on this one. I don't think I really want to go back to school right now. But, oh well. Hey! I found out how to put a live chatroom on my webpage. Its pretty cool. There is a link in my profile that you can click on to get to the page, then there is a little box in the top right hand corner and yeah you can figure it out from there. Changing the subject, does anyone hate their friends? I hang out with the same douche bags everyday, and I only like two of them. I'm not afraid of them or anything, infact I think I take pitty on them. Its just wierd because everybody thinks that Renne and I are hella cool, but Renne is just too heartless. I know that mght seem wierd, but he is so damn selfish and he tries to control everone. I don't want it to end up where we fist fight, but it my be inevedable. I want to avoid them all tomorrow.

You Freaks

FUCK YEAH FUCK YEAH!! I have finally aquired my new drumset... well not ecactly new persay...but you get the idea. Sweetness! I am qite pleased with this event. Now we are only short an electric guitar for our band. What do you freaks think of the name Millascious Mourning? I'm not positive on my spelling of "Milascious" but yeah. Well Yesterday was day two of suspension and Monday will sadly be the final day of chilling at home. SCAB!

Pigtastic-Ride

Welcome to day one of my three day suspension. No worries though. My family isn't pissed off because the guy who got in trouble with me, (Renne) his mom came by and we (My grandmother, uncle, he, his mother and myself) have discovered that my school hates diversity. I am so thankul that his mom came by or my grandma would have a grudge. All we were doing was trying to erect a three tier piggy back ride and we toppled over. Then the Hawk (Vice Principal) claims that the sixth graders who witnessed this wrote letters saying the three of us were in some kind of wierd orgy on the ground. Brandy- the base of our Pigtastic ride- didn't get in trouble. Renne got five days because he is on his second offnse. But that doesn't make sense bacause he had five on his first offense. Anyhoot the whole thing is bull shit and our parents have left it to us to expose the steriotypical, racist, pole smoking, bullshit Hawk for what she really is and possibly have her fired before she can do this to the next group of people that can think for themselves.

NoN SENSe

Fuck! I am sick of fuckg blurred vision. Chaos, anarchy, a morribound community striving to kill its self. I am so fucking pissed off. SO fucking pissed off. I want to kill kill. Stab cut. I am sick of this shit. I want everyone to go away I want them dead. Them dead. Stop laugjing this isn't a happy fucking place place" " " " Stop lying to me. To ME. Stop Lying. to mE. JusT Die. Die slow happy fatal clomor for MeR()cY. Stop. EnD.. J*ust fucking)( die and leave me out of it. Die and leave. NoN SENSe. I hate you. I hate you% I () hate you I hate y*ou I hate ^^~ you I@ hate you I Hat***E yKou I h"""ate yo:u I hate you all .. you alL

We Are Eye-Level

Well, I guess Jaycee thinks I am some pathetic sap but what can ya do? Oh well. I can't help it if I am totally fucked up, but she is right. I am pethetic, and I didn't realize- until she pointed it out- that I am a controlling asshole that wants everyone to feel as bad as I do. But actually... I have to disagree with the second part. I don't think anyone should feel as bad as I do. Its just that so many things have turned me cold over the years. But Jaycee... admit it, you're not much better than me. You can't look down your nose because we are eye-level. Think about it, you thrive on making people feel like shit, ridiculing them on every aspect of themselves but if you have a flaw, its okay. You're right its not your fault, it takes two to tango. And I am willing to accept the fact that I cuased the break up. But what you did was just plain down rightcold and wrong. You should have said, "*****, I don't l*** you anymore." Dont fucking give hints and the cold fucking shoulder. That is just plain fucked up.